Tuesday, August 24, 2010

What a Weekend!!

Alright ladies, I figured I would update my blog since I'm bored at work and I think blogging seems productive right about now:)

I'm training a new girl at work and although I am struggling to give up my work load, it's kinda nice not having something to do every minute of the day.  Then again, the day does go by much slower when you're not busy but I have so much more time to blog!  I told the other girl I work with that I don't mind giving the new girl all my stuff as long as she didn't mind me being bored and not having anything to do.  It would be kinda nice to work from home towards the end of this pregnancy.  The new girl will work out, she better because I refuse to train someone else.  I don't think I've ever talked so much at work as I have this past week and a half.  I sure do not like training people, but hopefully I did a decent enough job that I'm able to have a bit of peace while I'm on maternity leave.  I'm sure I'll be checking my e-mail periodically to make sure everything is ok.  Oh, man I'm going to love being away from this place for a little while:)

This past Sunday was a great day, busy, but great day.  First we had to be at church at 7:30am because Josh and I were on for worship this week.  I normally dread being there this early, but once I get there it never is as bad as I imagine in my head:)  Then we just hung around town the rest of the day because Josh had to do sound for Chick Night that night.  It just wasn't worth it for us to go all the way home for just an hour or so.  I napped at my parents' house and Josh watched TV for a while.  Oh, and we got the carseat!!  Can you believe it?  I can't believe we're actually going to need that in just 8 weeks or so.  It was a bit exciting:)  Chick Night was amazing!  Initially I did not want to go, I kinda thought I would just go home but then I felt bad that Josh was going to be there (one of the few men who was there) and I thought I should just go.  My mom decided to come with me and she hadn't planned on attending either.  Jennifer, one of the women at church, shared a bit of a testimony and it so touched my heart.  My mom had just been telling me earlier that day that she felt like she didn't want to get involved at church because she was afraid of getting hurt.  I told her that you have to make yourself vulnerable in order to be used by the Lord.  Anyway, Jennifer spoke about this very thing.  It was amazing!  So, going to Chick Night was so worth it:)  I am so thankful that we go to such an amazing church!

We have our last child birth preparation class tonight.  I must admit that I do not feel at all prepared for child birth.  In fact, I've never been so scared in all my life.  Maybe there will be some miraculous thought the teacher will say tonight that will put my mind at ease, I don't know.  I keep waiting for that "Ah Ha" moment.  I still have been struggling with this whole getting the baby out of me thing:)  I don't know if you ever feel completely at ease about the whole thing.  Child birth must be one of those things you just have to experience, you can't really prepare enough for it.  It's been nice to talk to other women who are having babies or have had babies and can share some wonderful information.  I really want to nurse the baby, but I've heard how hard it is and how painful it is and that is concerning.  I thought I wanted to try cloth diapering, but I'm re-thinking that now.  I don't know how I'd cope with washing poop out of 12-15 diapers a day or even more:)

Ladies thanks for all of your comments.  I so appreciate your wisdom!  Would you let this first time mom know if there is something you wish someone would have told you when you had your first baby?  I can't wait to see your responses.

Have a great week!

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Nearly 31 Weeks and Starting to Feel Uncomfortable.........

So for those of you who are already moms, do you remember when you became uncomfortable with pregnancy?  All along, I've felt great!  I've had energy, except in the very beginning when I couldn't sleep enough, and overall I've felt really good.  The past few days have been a little more on the rough side.  I haven't been sleeping very well, I'm definitely more uncomfortable.  I've sort of made it my mission to not be a complainer during my pregnancy.  I don't want to take any part of this for granted, so please don't think I'm whining and complaining about the wonderful miracle of pregnancy.  I'm kinda using this as my pregnancy journal so I'll be able to look back on this and see all that was going on. 

Lately, I've been experiencing quite a bit of discomfort in my nether regions if you know what I mean:)  I go to the doctor next week, so I'll be able to ask him more about it but I've read online that this is probably my hips widening in preparation for child birth.  If that's the case, there's nothing they can do about it but offer Tylenol for pain.  The only relief will come with having this baby.  I must admit that I'll miss being pregnant, even with the discomfort.  I love that I can feel the baby moving around, I love knowing he's protected and safe in my belly.  I love that he's never upset in there, or at least if he is it's not something I can hear:)  We have just over 9 weeks to go before my due date and I am scared.  We've been going to the child birth preparation classes and those are scary.  We learned about the epidural last night and all the other pain medications that can be used and I totally see why some moms want to go the natural child birth route.  Everything you take gets passed on to the baby, even the epidural.  Now, I'm not saying I won't get an epidural but I'd like to wait until I'm at least 5cm dilated before I get it (before transition, which I hear is incredibly painful).  I've already been praying about my labor and delivery.  I know that God hears our cries and he knows the desires of our hearts. 

This is such a crazy time in our lives.  We're going to be a family of 3 soon and I know we'll be fine.  I know we'll make it.  Josh and I were talking about how scared we were when we bought our house and here we are a year later doing just fine.  I know the Lord has provided for us in ways we'll never know and we may never see.  The God we serve is awesome and I know He will bless our new little family:)

Sunday, August 8, 2010

29 Week Update

Well friends I'm such a bad blogger.  Things have been so busy at work and home that I haven't had much time to write or check on all the updates you all have.  I'll try to read through them tonight:)  We interviewed a new girl to start in the office, but I didn't love her.  I know I probably won't "love" anyone, since it will be someone new.  I was a bit concerned because this girl is a friend of the office manager.  It concerns me because we haven't interviewed anyone else and if I have a complaint about her will I be able to go to the office manager with my concern?  I guess we'll see how it goes.  At 29 weeks, everything seems to be going along smoothly however we did have a bit of a scare Friday.

I normally hang out with my mom on Fridays and we normally go shopping.  This past Friday, we didn't do a whole lot.  We just walked around the mall and then went back home to check on my parents' dogs.  I had been lounging and watching some tv when I had to go to the bathroom.  First of all let me mention that I had not experienced any cramping or anything out of the ordinary this day.  Earlier on that week I had been experiencing some mild cramping, but it went away within a few hours.  When I went to the bathroom I noticed a bit of blood on my underwear.  For some reason this didn't worry me, but then I wiped and there was more bright red blood.  It was more than spotting, but not "flowing".  I definitely was concerned at this point.  You would be proud though, I was not crying:)  I called the doctor and they wanted me to go to the hospital.  I was nervous and crying at this point, but there was definitely a peace in my heart.  Even as my mom was driving me to the hospital, I was still able to hold a normal conversation and smile about things she would mention.  I know she was trying to keep my mind from thinking bad thoughts.  We got into the registration area and then I was taken to triage.  Josh was able to meet me there, but I was thankful that my mom was able to be with me until he got there.  In triage they told us that the baby was very healthy and his heart rate was very good.  The nurse mentioned that there are things the heart rate should be doing in babies further along than I am and our baby was already doing those things.  He was moving around a lot and his heart rate was fluctuating just as it should be with the movement.  They checked me to see if I was dilating or not and I wasn't.  They didn't see any active bleeding (which by the way, I should mention that the bleeding had stopped by the time I got to the hospital).  We had an ultrasound done and there was no bleeding they could see and the placenta was attached properly.  So, this was a case of "unexplained bleeding".  I hate that it was unexplained, but I'm thankful that it has stopped and so far everything is back to uneventful normal.

I thought to myself later, "so much for not being a tp inspector".  I was so thankful that our baby is healthy and they actually measured him as being a week ahead of schedule.  At the same time, I keep thinking what else can happen?  Why did I have to get any bad news during this pregnancy?  I mentioned that thought to a pastor's wife at church and she said that it must mean that there is a great calling on this little guy's life.  I've believed that from the very beginning of my pregnancy.  I've prayed that this child would do great and mighty things for the kingdom of God.  Now, I'll think of the complications I've had in a different way.  God has chosen this baby for Josh and I and I'm so excited to meet him, although I can wait until October:)  I'm thankful for this baby and he is already a blessing to us!  I'm praying this week is a great one!