Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Nearly Done!!

Well, I do have some good news to report from the doctor visit yesterday.  It might not be much, but I’m 60% effaced and 1cm dilated.  The doctor seemed pretty excited about that considering for the last 2 weeks I’ve been 50% effaced and that’s about it.  He also said the baby is lower, so I’m considering that to be good news for now.  The doctor said for me to call on Thursday, which is my due date, to schedule a NST.  I’m not sure if they do that at the doctor’s office or the hospital, then he said we can schedule an induction for Monday or Tuesday if the baby isn’t here yet.  I’ve kinda been against the induction because I’ve heard the contractions can be more painful, but I want to do what is best for the baby and I really don’t want a huge baby  The doctor said he’s already over 8lbs.  I guess we’ll find out for sure by early next week.
It’s hard to believe that he’ll be here and I won’t be pregnant next week.  When we were at church on Sunday I told Josh this could be our last church service without a baby.  That made me a little sad, but excited too.  I know having a baby changes everything and I’m praying that we’re prepared for that change. 
There is so much going on starting with the birth of our baby.  My brother will be here late next week, my friend from high school will be here the first week of November, my brother-in-law is getting married mid November (lots of family will be here), then starts the holidays.  I’m a little nervous how the holidays will work this year because of the baby, but before we were even pregnant I told my mom and his mom that we would be spending the holidays at our house.  They are welcome to come and celebrate at our house, but we’re done with the two Thanksgivings and two Christmases.  We’ll see how receptive they are to that.  My mom knows and she’s ok with it.  I don’t know that she likes it, but she’ll tolerate it.  I haven’t talked to my mother-in-law yet about it.  I might let Josh handle that one  At the same time, I love spending Christmas morning with my in-laws.  They make a huge deal about Christmas and it’s just a great time.  Not that my family doesn’t make a big deal of Christmas, I have just loved these past few years spending Christmas morning with my in-laws.  I love watching everyone open gifts even more than I enjoy opening my own gifts.  I guess we’ve got a month or so to decide on that one.
Do you have both sets of family fairly close?  How do you handle the holidays?  I’d love to hear your thoughts and what works for you.

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

The Good News Is......

We have a healthy baby growing in my belly, the not so good news is that my body is not quite ready to start the eviction process.  I was bummed and I called my husband and cried.  I really felt like there should be something going on to show me that the delivery was getting near, but not this week.  I had been hoping that the baby would be here by the end of this week.  I guess I just had my hopes up that he would come early since he had been measuring a week ahead of schedule based on our ultrasounds.

Then I was remembering where I was this time last year.  I had just found out I was pregnant and I remember praying that the little baby would stay in there and grow healthy and strong.  I wanted so badly for that baby to stay in me, but that was not the path God had for us.  I've been incredibly emotional this week and I think it's because I've been thinking about this time last year.  I know it does get easier and I'm so thankful that we have a healthy baby growing inside of me now, but I still remember that incredible hurt.  Now, I feel kinda bad wanting this baby out of me.  I'm still trying to not worry about it and trust that God has everything under control and has a plan for this baby.  I believe they are great plans!  I'm so excited to meet our baby, but I know we will meet him in God's timing.  God knows how bad my heartburn is, how crampy I've been feeling, how the hot flashes make me crazy and how I have to pee all the time.  He knows it all.  So, I don't have to worry.  I don't have to be concerned about where/when my water will break or when labor will start.  He has seen it all and orchestrated the whole thing.  He knew this baby before he was even formed in me, how amazing is that?  I'm thankful that I serve a God who is bigger than me and sees far more than I see:)

Monday, October 11, 2010

No Baby Yet......

Well friends, no baby yet!  Part of me wants to have this baby out of me so badly and part of me can wait to meet him.  We went to church yesterday and the pastor did a sermon on worrying.  I say that to tell you that I worry about things.  I worry about things that I cannot change and things that are silly to worry about.  I do have a question for you moms out there, how do you not worry?  I wanted to yell from my seat in church yesterday, "how do you expect me to not worry when I'm about to give birth for the first time in the next week or so"?  The pastor said that when we worry, it's a signal that we need to pray.  So, I did a lot of praying yesterday, especially when I couldn't sleep because I was worrying about things.  I worry about the whole labor and delivery process.  I've never done this before so I have no idea what to expect and I don't think the class we took at the hospital did all that to prepare us.  Don't get me wrong, I learned things during the class but really how can you prepare for childbirth when you've never done it before?  I worry about my water breaking at work or the store or anywhere but home for that matter.  I trust God and I know He has a plan for us, I just have issues with not knowing the plan.  I admit it, I'm a control freak!  I wish I had that happy go lucky attitude where not much mattered and I wasn't a control freak.  Josh is a little like that so I guess that's why we make a good couple.  

I've been feeling a little crampy over these past few weeks.  It kinda comes and goes, but is definitely uncomfortable.  I would take some Advil if I wasn't pregnant and these were menstrual cramps.  I have another doctor appointment today and I'm hoping there is some progress going on down there.  The doctor said that if my due date comes and there is no baby that he'll have me wait another week.  He said there is a higher incidence of c-sections when inducing first time moms.  So, pray that I go into labor on my own and I don't have to be induced or have a c-section.  I will do what is best for the baby, whatever that may be.

Josh and I had a date night on Friday, since it might be our last one before the baby gets here.  We had a delicious dinner at The Cheesecake Factory and we even had dessert.  We hardly ever get dessert, but this was a treat for us!

I hope to have news of a baby being born next week!!