We had some friends tell us that going from two to three kids was the hardest adjustment. Our two older kids are a bit crazy so we knew it would be difficult, but there are some days when it's just exhausting. Our oldest, Jackson, was a pretty fussy baby but as he got older he was a really happy toddler. We prepared ourselves for him to be the baby that got into everything and did all the stuff toddlers do, but he wasn't really into everything. We child-proofed everything we knew he could get into. We even anchored some of our furniture to the wall and all in all, he wasn't a super eventful toddler. Now, our daughter and middle child, Hayden, is into everything! I feel like I can't even express in words how into everything she is. She will grab random things off the counter, if she can reach, and bring it to me. Nothing gets past her! She hears all conversations and repeats phrases whether or not she knows what they mean. The other day she told me, "stop talking to me". Can you believe that?!? I would say she is probably going to be the ringleader of our children. She can get Jackson to do things that he normally wouldn't think to do. I love her so very much and I love her tenacious spirit. I know someday that same spirit will be put to good use, but for now it just drives me crazy and I can't turn my back on her for a second.
Hayden is like a mini mommy and I know one day, maybe 30 years from now, she will be a great mommy. She want so much to feed Bennett, but she only gets to help feed him with they are with my mom while I'm at work since I breastfeed. She loves Bennett so much and and I think she loves her baby dolls so much more now that Bennett is here and I have a baby to play with like her. She still talks about Bennett popping out of my belly and going to the hospital to get him out.
There are moments when I feel totally overwhelmed having 3 kids and then I start typing out a blog entry and I feel like I am so blessed to have these children. Although they are a handful (even now I'm dreading having to take all 3 to the dealership to have the car serviced on Monday), I wouldn't change a thing. They make me laugh everyday and I know I am a better person and a whole lot more patient because of them. Three kids is a lot, but now that Bennett is sleeping thru the night (most days) I feel so much better.
I have felt pretty good about being back at work. I so miss my Bennett, especially since I was home with Hayden and Jackson, but it's been pretty good overall. I am so grateful to work for a company that has been so flexible in my schedule and even let me work part time during my maternity leave. I am even more grateful that I have my mom to care for my children. There is no way we could afford child care if we had to pay for it. My grandparents live with my parents and I love that my children will not only grow up knowing their grandparents but also their great grandparents! Up until recently my grandparents lived in Texas and my brother and I didn't get to see them all that much growing up, so it means so much to me that I get to see them and so do my children.